I keep asking people if they'll Skype me while I'm away. Today Laya said, "We'll be on completely different schedules." She doesn't have Skype and she doesn't plan to get it. "Just be where you are. Be in that moment. We'll all still be here when you get back."
I think that's part of the reason I'm not fully excited to go yet; I'm so busy enjoying where I am right now that I don't have room for some unknown quantity in the future. I feel like I have to put on my 'excited voice' whenever anyone asks if I'm looking forward to my trip. Why would I want to talk about the cold weather while there is a fabulous blue sky overhead, the sun's warmth on my arms, and a cool breeze making sure I don't get too hot? Why would I talk about making new friends when I'm surrounded by my karate class and am sneakily texting a uni friend about when we're catching up next?
One of the unofficial reasons why I wanted to go abroad, as recorded in my diary from a year ago, was that, if my life was a book, I felt like I hadn't even reached the first chapter yet. That 'my book' would start perhaps just before I left. What a stupid thing to say. My life is full now. I can't believe I didn't realise that before.
On the other hand, there are a few things that are closing up. My jobs have all finished up (for various reasons, as mentioned in the posts, When you start to be like your job and Just a few things that'll get you fired). It'll be good to focus on other things in a new place for a while, and to come back fresh.
While I'm over there, I'll have the time of my life, I'm sure. But right now I'm enjoying Brisbane. I will try to give whichever place I'm in my full attention. I'll try not to bug my Brissie friends too much while I'm in England, and will for the most part content myself with keeping in touch via this blog and Facebook.
For another carpe diem post: Slow down and enjoy the mango
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