Locked out

I'm in tons of groups at uni. I go to all my classes. I talk to people all day. But I've never felt so lonely.
I was out with a friend and mutual friends last night. I went out and had a great time at an open mic event the other night and met lovely people. Stupid Skype locked me out. At least I'm in my room safe and warm. I'd locked myself out of the building at one point, after rushing out the door.

I'm getting along really well with my housemates. No complaints. I've had a few good conversations with most of them. Just earlier I went to the other kitchen to jam with some of the girls. It was one direction and stuff but still fun.

Fuck, why is life so harddddddddddd. I need to feel good about stuff coz if you feel bad about it then it'll get worse, but how can you feel good if you don't. Like, watch funny movies and hang up pictures of me with friends I guess. I don't want to do anything. I have plenty to do. I should go to bed. I literally feel like doing nothing. Maybe I'll try to meditate. If you're with your deeper self then you don't need anything.

My cold is getting better. That's a plus.

I fucking hate my life right now. I don't but I'm in that mood. I really should post this coz it's just me complaining, but I think it's important to show that life isn't all fun and games. It gets hard but I'm sure it'll get better. At least, I have to convince myself of that else I'm not going to get through the weekend.

Do people hug here? I think they do quite a bit, if you're friends. Stupid awkward making friends thing. Probably doesn't help that I'll be gone in a few months. Maybe they think it's not worth the effort if I'm gone soon. I don't care--quality over quantity. I'm really tired. My room's a mess. Whatever.

PS I can't stand pity. Don't you dare pity me or I'll kick your ass.